Monday, October 8, 2012

Update

Despite knowing that Dr. Tan would be swamped today after being gone last week, I still showed up at his office at 8 am. He wasn't going to be in until 9 they said, so I talked to the nurse practitioner again. She said she hadn't been able to talk to Dr. Tan yet but would definitely call me after doing so. She told me to try not to worry. So, I headed off for South Carolina to meet our daughter coming home from Afghanistan.

Just after lunch time the nurse called. Relaying the message from Dr. Tan, she said that there isn't much they can do right now but monitor the cancer. As long as my white blood count stays normal we are to be content. If it goes up, then that is trouble, bad trouble. As in real bad trouble.

I was also told that if I have any changes in symptoms to call them right away. Well, can we say paranoid?! Every time I sneeze or cough I'm going to wonder if that is a change!!

So, they had me change my six month bloodwork and one year doctor visit to a three month check and visit.

My false positive theory was just hope in the wind. The test measures the amount of cancer cells. It doesn't just say positive or negative. The good thing is that my measurement was log 12 when I was first diagnosed. Then it steadily went down to log zero. Now it is back up to log three.

Well, that is all I know for now. Thank you for the kind comments, emails, and especially the prayers. I'll try to not let this thing preoccupy my mind but I know that if it goes to the next step, it will get ugly in a hurry. Thank you again!!

Saturday, October 6, 2012

CHANGES

clip_image002Even though I’m not writing the blog regularly any longer, I still write after my oncologist visits to give you the latest. I had my latest oncologist appointment yesterday (Friday).

A week before yesterday’s appointment, the oncologist’s office called and said that Dr. Tan would be out of the office on the day of my appointment. They offered to reschedule me or I could see his Nurse Practitioner. Knowing that I’d be gone the following week to get our daughter from the airport, coming back from Afghanistan, I opted for the Nurse Practitioner.

I arrived at the oncologist’s office early as always and was called back early. The Nurse Practitioner greeted me and then told me that everything looked great on my blood work, other than the stubborn anemia, etc. She asked if I had any questions. I told her that I had three. The first question was that Dr. Tan always gives me a copy of my results; I asked if I could have a copy of these results. She said I could have the copy she had in her hand. She then proceeded to answer my other two questions when I noticed that the BCR-ABL test, the cancer test, was not there. I asked her about it. She checked the file and then the computer. She said the computer shows that the test was performed but there wasn’t a copy of the test result in the computer. She excused herself and said she’d be right back. She returned to say that the lab was resending the test result and she’d have it in a minute. She left the room again.

This time she came back in with a different look on her face. She said that my test was positive: The cancer is back. The nurse practitioner said that because this test result just got to the office, Dr. Tan had not seen it yet. She said that she will discuss it with him Monday morning and they will call me with any treatment plan changes. She anticipated that Dr. Tan would want to do a bone biopsy. I groaned. She said she understood.

I’ve had an uneasy feeling about this test result for the past couple of weeks. Yet, that isn’t too uncommon; I often get an uncomfortable feeling just walking into any doctor's office!! In this case though, there is just something about facing the cancer question that is especially unsettling.

After my cancer went into remission, Dr. Tan told me that my cancer would likely go active again in about ten years or so. Hopefully by then there would be an effective treatment available for me at that time. Well, unfortunately, ten years turned into one year: I was in remission for only one year.

The good news is that my White Blood Count (WBC) is low. I’ll be in trouble when the cancer causes the WBC count to go high. At that point, I’ll have to consider a bone marrow transplant and all those things that I previously said I wouldn’t undergo. We’ll see though. A bone marrow transplant could be staring me in the face real soon and thus I might have a change of heart!!

I just so happened to have lunch scheduled with my older brother after my appointment. After emailing Eileen at work and contacting the kids about my results, I met my oldest brother for lunch. I told him the news. He offered his bone marrow. I told him that since he just had his gall bladder out, I don’t want bone marrow from someone who doesn’t have a gall bladder!! We laughed. While a bone marrow transplant may be staring at me, I’m not going to think about it too much until I have to.

So, I won’t know much else until Monday. Even so, I’ll likely be on the road before Dr. Tan calls. I’m not sure I’ll be able to blog while gone. I may be gone all week. When I can, I’ll update you.

By the way, I waited to post this until after our daughter, who is in the process of returning from Afghanistan, got a chance to get the news.

Monday, April 2, 2012

TEST RESULTS

I’m glad to report that my blood test results were good. The results show that Blood Test ResultsI am still in remission. Thank God!! Beyond that, the rest of the blood test is relatively unimportant to me. However, the tests do show that I’m still quite anemic, even a little more than I usually am. However, my anemia is still in an acceptable range for taking the chemo drug, Gleevec. In other words, the anemia isn’t bad enough to warrant discontinuing the Gleevec. The benefits of taking Gleevec greatly outweigh the negative effects of the anemia and the risk for my leukemia going “acute.”

I was also pleasantly surprised to learn that my White Blood Cell (WBC) count has come up some. For the first time in a long time my WBC count is in the lower range of normal. If you remember, my WBC count had gotten up to nearly 100,000 before beginning Gleevec, and then after beginning treatment my WBC count dropped down so low that I was almost removed from Gleevec. For the past couple of years, my WBC count has been very low but tolerable to Dr. Tan. In these situations, low WBC counts mean that my immunity is diminished. However, this latest blood test shows an improvement…at least that is what I hope it is. I don’t see Dr. Tan for six more months to know for sure. In the back of my mind I know that my White Blood Cell count is supposed to eventually go crazy indicating the onset of the “acute” phase. We’re hoping and praying that Gleevec will keep me in remission for years until something is developed that can take over when it is no longer effective. Anyway, I hope that my elevation in WBC count is an indication of a better immunity and not the beginning of something bad. With the cancer cell test coming back normal, I choose to believe that the modest increase in my WBC count is nothing but good news.

Monday, March 26, 2012

SPRING BREAK

The week of Spring Break is over and it has gone by quickly. Although Eileen spentSpring Break considerable time working on school work and her master’s degree, we also found time to spend a lot of time together which included strawberry picking and a couple of outings to the movies. Eileen has worked hard these past two years on her master’s work, in addition to her high school math teaching job. In another month her master’s work will be complete.

I went to the races at Five Flags Speedway here in Pensacola yesterday with a friend. It was a beautiful day but I should have heeded Eileen’s suggestion to take sunscreen. It was in the low 80’s but it didn’t seem that hot so I passed on the sunscreen. I came back from the races, which had been rescheduled because of a rainout on Friday, with a minor but obvious burn. I didn’t think about the fact that I’m supposed to limit my exposure to direct sunlight, because of the chemo drug Gleevec, until I took my dosage at supper time. Oh well, I don’t feel worse for wear and I think most of the burn will be gone by morning.

I mentioned last week that I got my blood tested at the oncologist’s office to make sure that my leukemia is still in remission. I don’t have an appointment with Dr. Tan for another six months; I’m supposed to call the oncologist’s office for the results. I’ll stop in today and get a copy of my results. I pray for good news and I appreciate all those who keep me in their prayers.

Monday, March 19, 2012

UPDATE

I haven’t given a health update for a while so I thought this would be a good time. However, there isn’t really anything new to report. Stomach pain and G.I. painDSC_0278 along with nausea as a result of Gleevec are almost a constant companion. However, my leg cramps are much better and my skin rashes are much better too. This past Wednesday I had a blood test at the oncologist’s office. I’ll know in about two weeks if I’m still in remission. I pray so.

My arm is in a very vulnerable state as compared to this time of year in the past. I’m not looking forward to the encounters with air conditioning and ceiling fans this year. Already my arm is giving me fits although I am able to sleep most nights. I’m very thankful for that. It seems that if I behave myself with my arm that it becomes more wimpish and unable to handle much adversity at all. There’s a reasonable balance in there somewhere; I’m not sure I’ve ever been able to find it.

Our oldest son’s family is in town this weekend. Although they spent most of this weekend at our daughter-in-law’s sister’s house, we’ve had a great visit with them and our seventeen-month-old granddaughter, Lindsay. Eileen and I always take her on evening walks. Lindsay really likes it and we like her liking it!!

Our oldest daughter is at Camp Pendelton, California for one more week before heading off to Afghanistan until October. We will miss her but we’re proud of the service she is providing to the medical health of our military.

Our other two kids and Eileen are on Spring Break this week. This is the first year that it hit out that they all had it at the same time. It’s going to be a great week.

One last thing…a friend is having serious surgery on Thursday; please pray for him and his family.

Monday, March 12, 2012

SEASON’S GREETINGS!!

We are well into the season of Lent and Easter is not too far away. Especially in our busy world with all kinds of worldly noise distracting us from the importantSeasons Greetings aspects of life, it’s good that we have religious seasons. Oddly enough, Christmas wasn’t that long ago but the Christmas season is becoming so commercialized and political that many have a hard time finding peace and true spiritual meaning in the season. The Easter season gives us another chance at it without so much commercialization. Yet, the distractions and busyness of life can make the season go by without us attaching much significance to it. Indeed, we have to make conscious effort to come out of the Easter season a better person than we went into it. Many people give something up for Lent as a means of self-discipline. Others perform additional righteous acts during Lent. Whatever we choose and regardless of our denomination, it’s a good time to reflect on our faith-journey and make some changes. Even if we didn’t start at the beginning of Lent, it’s never too late to start. Furthermore, personal spiritual inventory is not something that we should only do at Christmas and Easter.

Monday, March 5, 2012

FAMILY REFLECTIONS

This has been an extra good weekend as all the kids were home from lastDSC_0230 Thursday evening through Sunday evening when our oldest son’s family headed back home. Our oldest daughter is still home until Thursday morning.

When so many miles separate the homes of our two oldest kids, it is a special blessing to have them all home at the same time. As our third child is in the final stretch of his college degree and our youngest daughter begins university life in the fall, we treasure the times we’re all together. Especially with our oldest daughter about to leave for a seven month deployment to Afghanistan, we know that it will be at least that many months before we’re all together again. Even so, only time and career choices in DSC_0174the years to come will determine if it gets easier or harder to get everyone together. For now, we are thankful and celebrate the times we have.

As our children get older and carve their own paths in the world, we experience and enjoy the next generation anew as our sixteen-month-old granddaughter (Lindsay) brings much joy, love, and laughter to the family. Lindsay was taking a nap while the rest of us gathered around the table to pray on Sunday afternoon. I look forward to when the family gathers again in person and in prayer.